Thinking back to the “Principles of Life”:

I look back over my life and think what could I have done:

– Right, Better, Wrong

– or more importantly…….WHAT WOULD I CHANGE IN MY LIFE?

Many years ago in 1989, when our father(53) was dying with Childhood Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia over an emotional 2 1/2 years. Watching our mother, trying to provide home health care.  Watching my brother do anything & everything to support Mom and Dad locally.   Me-Traveling and working remote from NC to NY to take my Dad to Onocology appointments through the Upstate NY Winters.   On top of this, my family was pretty poor.

This was not the hard part.

I made a decision through this tough time to reconcile my relationship with my Dad before he passed.  I had to practice in my mind what I would say to him.

He was not the best husband, provider to our Mom and us kids.  But what I decided – to forgive him.  He did the best he could.  Could I be mad at him?  Sure.  What would that solve?

25 years later-  I look back and know this was one of the best decisions I made in my life was to forgive him.  Even better during our talk/crying session-  I THANKED him for making me into the person I am today.   I am still thankful for him making me:  strong, honest, determined, boat worthy, striving to learn more, travel, and be independent.  To this day, I am still thankful and blessed.

Forgiveness and moving forward are some of the biggest steps I have taken in my life.  For that, I am grateful beyond words.

 

(FYI- I am a horrible writer, grammar, maybe spelling but beyond that, my words are true and heartfelt)

–  April Blasier Beckman  12/10/2014

 

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